mad scientist girl

so I'm getting shit done today... you know.. adult type stuff. I got my registration date for my fall semester, so I diligently checked whether there are any issues with my registration and of course one of my classes says I don't have the pre-reqs because of the way they put my credits in the system. As well, the lab course only has 5 spots available and so of course it's already full. The adult thing I've done: email the department well before I have to register so that the issues can be resolved. I started my student loan application, but this year the bf and I are technically considered to be common-law married ... so I have to get a new form that he has to fill out and submit before I submit my application. They want to make sure that he isn't making enough money to support both our living AND paying for me to go to school. The adult thing I've done: print out the form and get it filled out and mailed by the end of the week so I can submit my applic...

according to webMD.... I might be dying. I'm on two weeks straight with basically the same headache. I'm starting to wonder what it feels like to be normal. Although I was never really normal. Who wants to be normal anyway? Normal is boring. this is my last week of a full week of classes... then it's just Mondays until I find out if I'm working for the rest of the summer. If not, then I must go out and find a big girl job... but if I DO work the rest of the summer. Well then, *happy dance* if only all our happy dances were like this speaking of happy dances... I'm jamming to THIS awesome summer song.. can't get enough. it's awesomesauce. On a different note, I miss school... how fucking sad is that? I'm actually looking forward to being back in school in the fall. I think it's just cuz it keeps me busy. I like using my brain... keeps me going. Right now I have FAR too much time on my hands. I'm trying to finish the 5th book in the Game o...

my head has been pounding for days now .... not a migraine, but a headache. Not to diminish it, cuz this headache is still really painful and annoying. I just want to lay in bed and do nothing. Instead I have to go to work. I do like my job... but I really dislike doing it when I have a headache. this love/hate relationship leads me back to humpday.... so I'm going to share some more songs I love to hate. reason I love this song - it's an awesome song reason I hate this song - every time I hear it, I can't help but picture Liv Tyler and Alicia Silverstone in the video. reason I love this song - it's got a great beat and I love the bass line reason I hate this song - the one lyric in the song, "maybe I should just kill myself" reason I love this song - who doesn't love this song? reason I hate this song - every time you hear this song played in a bar people sing the Britney Spears version. reason I love this song - because it's Bif Naked...

one job ... that's all I have thus far. While on the surface, working four days a week for an hour seems like something out of fairy tales... (and it is).. it also means I have no money whatsoever... being broke really fucking sucks, in case you weren't aware. my one job is going really great... so at least there is that. Also we got the house cleaned this past weekend .... actually took the ferret cage apart and power washed it... AND I power washed the back walkway and deck... I felt so grown up! Strangely... it was oddly relaxing. Anyone else experience this sense of calm and zen while power washing? (it might just be me) Sadly that's the only bit of calm and zen I've been feeling.... I'm in a bit of a depression rut right now... feeling like I keep getting knocked down no matter what I do.. and that every decision I made is wrong. I'm afraid to make any decision anymore because I'm worried I'm going to make the wrong one. That's really ho...

for once, I’m grateful it’s NOT Friday.. and that’s because I’m on reading break. Friday means it’s almost over... and I’m not ready for it to be over. I was laying in bed this morning, enjoying the serenity of quiet and wonderfulness... realizing that next week I’d be back to getting up at 5am and spending 5 hours a day on transit... dealing with labs, lab reports, homework and exams. I love it, and I hate it. I think that’s the general mantra of all students. Yesterday I went on a tour of an analytical lab that I could potentially work at.. it’s energizing, people... the work I could be doing... I’m SO excited.. like for reals excited. Like a job where I could actually ENJOY going to work every day. I’m sure this is what people are supposed to feel like when they go to college. This is what the world is supposed to be like. and yet.... I still can’t help but wonder if I’m going to be able to “have it all” .. I won’t graduate for 2 more years.... by then I’ll be 34 (go...

so I guess you're wondering what I've been up to lately? NO? well.. I’m going to tell you anyway. this is ALL I was doing.. I swear. ok no... I’ve actually been BUSY! My 2nd term started at school... and I’m taking 3 chemistry courses.. all chem electives.. as well as a laboratory course. The lab is probably the most work because there are 2 labs every week (for four hours each) and the lab reports are due one week later. So my weekends have been spent doing my labs.. and that’s basically it. I did take SOME time off to hang with friends and watch the Superbowl... (I must admit even though I hate Beyonce, she rocked the show).. and do SOME fun stuff with friends. I think life needs a balance.. so I’m trying really hard to not feel guilty about not doing hw to be social... it’s a work in progress. So anyhow... I’ve been busy busy... but it feels SO good to be back in classes again. I really did miss it last term when I was off. I didn’t miss studying though... lol. Wh...

so I'm an asshole. why you ask? because I haven't fucking blogged in ... well.. i can't even fucking remember how long. It's really not my fault though. I'm working 6 days a week... and M-F I usually work 10+ hour days. When Sunday rolls around I don't even wanna turn on my fucking computer... let alone sit for 10 minutes and write some shit down. Hopefully though.. in a week or so I'll be done work and I'll be off til January and then back in school where I'll have about the same amount of free time. BUT... I can procrastinate homework by blogging... plus as @OhNoaG and @JenReinmuth knows... Undergrads make for fucking blog fodder gold. (fuck those wanks) Anyhow.. .that's really all that's been up with me. It's my birthday in a week (literally) and I can't believe how much has happened in a year. Though it feels like I'm not really in a better place than I was last year... that could be because I stopped taking my meds...

so I'm a bad person.... a really, really bad person. I haven't blogged in... I don't even know how long. It's NOT my fault though. I'm back at work and I'm fucking EXHAUSTED. Working is serious bizness people, for reals. As well, the job I'm working at requires a lot of overtime ... it's not paid extra overtime, just regular time, but extra $$ nonetheless. Today I worked from 7:30am to 9pm.... that`s a long ass fucking day people. .. and what am I doing you ask? (or maybe you didn't but I'm going to fucking tell you anyway) I'm working at a photography studio that does school photo's.... and I'm a jack of all trades there.. I do editing, computer work, photo proofs, packaging, shipping, organizing..... it's fun seeing all the adorable kids pictures... and sometimes laughing at the weird fucking names that parents give their kids... like seriously people... do you WANT your kid to be made fun of? Was that your GOAL when you named...

I blogged about my good and bad news a couple weeks ago ... and now, with only a week and a half left until school starts... I really need to seriously think about what I'm going to do. As of yet, the bf has no serious job prospects ... and I have a few. I have one that I'd REALLY like to do ... which I did a couple years ago... working at a photo lab that does school photo's. It's temporary... I only work from Sept until Dec... I can wear jeans n stuff to work... AND I can work as many hours as I'd like.. which means for those three months I can make some good money. This will work out in a few ways... because not only will we be able to afford to live .... I might also be able to save up some $$ for school... which is always helpful. The downside is .. of course.. that I'll be taking a semester off school... which puts of my graduation date even further.... I feel like I've been going to school FOREVER.. and I've been putting off having a baby unti...

today is my last day at my current job .. and I'm writing this post FROM my work computer on my lunch break.... cuz I'm SUPER excited. My wonderful, awesome, amazing, lovely coworkers got me a KINDLE as my going away present! How awesome is that?! I've wanted one of these for over a year now, and was actually going to put it on my Christmas list (sorry SO, you're going to have to buy me something else now). *super mega awesome happy dance* I just wanted to share with the world! oh.. and it's FRIDAY YO! THINGS I LOVE FRIDAYS! This Friday I LOOOOOOVE.......... my new KINDLE - of COURSE this would be on my list today. I can't wait to load it up with awesome books and read them on the bus on my hour and a half bus ride to school and then again on the hour and a half bus ride home. I think after I register my new kindle tonight, I'm going to be shopping for a new case and also buying Amazon credit to spend on yumm...

I'll start with the great news cuz I'm just so excited about it I want to BURST! A little backstory first.. my dad has leukemia and also had a cancerous lump in his throat. He went through surgery and chemo and so the lump and cancer was gone but he was still left with the leukemia. A little while ago his white cells spiked again so they thought they might have another type of cancer, in which case he might need more chemo to which he has refused cuz the last time was so awful! Well anyhow.. the good news.. he went for a biopsy last week and it turns out he doesn't have cancer!! I'm so excited about this as I only have my dad now (my mum passed last year) and so I really want him around as long as possible... I haven't had kids or gotten married yet and I'm worried my kids aren't going to have any grandparents on my side. OK .. so enough with that.. I started getting into the bad stuff again and I want to be a part of cheesy bloggers weekly post! This ...