mad scientist girl

why is it that every time I write the phrase, "teeny tiny" I think of this song? BEWARE - this song is NSFW!!! Anyhow, now that's over. Update on me! I'm done with classes now and I have 1 more final (on the 24th) and I'm DONE for the semester. I'm always a little conflicted at the end of a term. As much as being in school is hard and frustrating and time consuming, I love it too. I love the atmosphere of learning and thinking. I love being presented with new ideas and concepts. Basically I just love using my brain. (yes, confirming again I really am a nerd) Regardless, it's almost over and since they don't offer any chemistry classes in the summer, I'm stuck with the task of finding something to do with my summer. Likely something that makes me $$ so I can afford to eat. (always a plus) thankfully, I have already lined up one summer job with a company called Mad Science where I am an instructor doing after school programs for elementary ...

this week’s labs... fucking LOVE Mr. Bean oh goodness.. what can I say. It was a bad week, and continues to be a bad week cuz I have a midterm tomorrow that I don't feel at ALL prepared for!  Tuesdays lab ... organic... last week’s lab consisted of just stirring for over an hour .. and then a liquid-liquid separation... everything seemed to go just fine. THIS week.... not so much. The first part we had to gravity filter the drying agent and then rotary-evaporate the solvent out ...which is basically is just putting your flask onto a machine that spins it in a water bath and the solvent boils off.... wanna buy one? but of course.. the one I used wasn’t on and so the bath had to warm up.. taking (what felt like) forever. Then when it finally started to boil, of course I walked away and by the time I returned it was a goey boiling mess! *slaps forehead* BUT.. it’s ok, can be salvaged... let it cool and prepare the reagents for crystallization... ethanol and petro...

so I guess you're wondering what I've been up to lately? NO? well.. I’m going to tell you anyway. this is ALL I was doing.. I swear. ok no... I’ve actually been BUSY! My 2nd term started at school... and I’m taking 3 chemistry courses.. all chem electives.. as well as a laboratory course. The lab is probably the most work because there are 2 labs every week (for four hours each) and the lab reports are due one week later. So my weekends have been spent doing my labs.. and that’s basically it. I did take SOME time off to hang with friends and watch the Superbowl... (I must admit even though I hate Beyonce, she rocked the show).. and do SOME fun stuff with friends. I think life needs a balance.. so I’m trying really hard to not feel guilty about not doing hw to be social... it’s a work in progress. So anyhow... I’ve been busy busy... but it feels SO good to be back in classes again. I really did miss it last term when I was off. I didn’t miss studying though... lol. Wh...

it's Friday of my first week off and I can't believe the week has gone by so fast .... I guess it doesn't help when you spend two entire days in bed watching shows on Netflix.  We did get lots of stuff done this week... groceries, house, and other such stuff. At the same time .. a lot didn't get done. There is a lot in the house that is still needing to be done... but I fully admit that I didn't do it either.  One amazing thing that did happen this week.... I got my grades back for the Ochem II ....in case you didn't see on twitter.. I got a B- That means I ended up with an A- in Ochem I and a B- in Ochem II.... I'm VERY happy with how well I did ... my grades reflected the effort that I put into the courses. It makes me feel really good. I think in science courses.... a person has to have somewhat of a natural talent for the material ..and has to put in a decent amount of effort.... because if one of the other is lacking, you won't do...

My summer term is FINALLY over! Now I can stop driving you all crazy with random tweets about organic chemistry and the excessive amount of negative energy I put out there before and after every midterm. I have massive self doubt, and even when I'm sure I know the material and have done a good job, I still don't believe I got a good grade. Part of it is because of my test anxiety, as I've NEVER scored well on tests before.  This term I don't expect to get the A- that I achieved for the first term, but I'm happy as long as I pass. Which I'm almost certain that I did. (did you catch that almost, there's my self doubt) On the heels of my great news, comes some sad news too. The bf has lost his job. Since he was the sole supporter of the family while I was in school, I don't know that I'll be able to attend full time classes this fall unless he finds a new job. Therefore, I've taken some precautionary measures. I've emailed regarding defer...

just keep studying, studying, studying.... (sorry... channeling Dora from Finding Nemo)... obviously I'm starting to lose my mind (if you can't tell) I blame the ochem.... seriously. I'm so fucking done. Two more weeks and I have: -a midterm -a prelab -a 2pt lab -a lab report -an assignment -a final all in TWO WEEKS! *faints* I`ve done up summary sheets for the 3 chapters that we`ve studied the past 2 weeks.... (correction: I have 3 more rxns to be done) .... but it`s up to 6 pages DOUBLE SIDED.... all of which I have to KNOW by Thursday. yeah.. so not gonna happen. fuck balls. I`m hitting a real low... because I know my grade isn`t going to be as good for this term as it was for last term (A- in case you forgot)... but so far I`m at a 70% in the lab (30% of grade), 80% on the first midterm and 50% on the second midterm (both are worth 10% each of the total grade).... I have one more midterm worth 10%, an assignment worth 5% and a final worth 30%......

and I just wrote a whole fucking post that my computer decided wasn't adequate and deleted on me. FUCKING BALLS! seriously. I was talking about how I splashed nitric acid on my face today in lab... (it's ok ... I'm not disfigured or anything) How I fucking HATE summer cuz it's hot and I don't manage well with heat. Also that we're having a make-up quiz on Thursday cuz our midterm was sucky. basically that was it ... but I wrote a lot more. the only good thing going on for this week is that we're having the awesomely amazing robot mommy writing a guest post for my blog this week.. *cue happy dance* if you haven't read anything by the robot mommy.. I suggest you head there right now and read everything ... she's that amazeballs. So tune in this week for her phenomenal words of wisdom. I'm going to go drown my sorrows in Netflix. seeeeeya.

I'm just so tired of fighting... it feels like every step in my life has been uphill. I just found out today that they aren't promoting me to 3rd year status because two of the classes I did in my term 1, were below 60% and I need to have completed 60% of my classes with a 60% standing. If they need a 60% standing, then why don't they make the passing grade 60%? That makes sense, don't you think? My term 1 was just a hellstorm.... most of you know cuz you were right here with me.. I was dealing with my mums suicide (still) ... and all the conditions I had before (anxiety, depression) were amplified because of my her passing as well as all the new stress I was under from school and life... It caused me to be physically ill before every test I took that term... and partly due to that is why I failed Ochem (which is why I'm taking it again this summer).. and why my other two classes that term are below 60% ... according to the doctor what I have is considered a dis...

Some people might say I’m crazy.... well... crazy is as crazy does.. or something like that. I’m starting to discover.. (or possibly I’ve known this all along).. that I’m NOT crazy... I’m normal.. it’s everyone else who is batshit insane. How do I know this? Well...... first off.. there are more of “us” than there are of “them” ..(and if you need proof I made a very scientific chart to show you) if you weren’t acting a bit odd after some life-altering moments... well then.. there might be something wrong with you. If you don’t find humor in the crazy occasionally ... there might be something wrong with you. Those are just a few of the reasons.. I quite often share with others that I’m crazy... but it’s ok cuz it’s normal to be crazy. I have noticed, however, that there are far more women toting the “crazy” than men.... and I’m not sure what that’s about .. either women are driven to levels of insanity due to the crazy things that men do to us... which is a complete...

This weekend we decided to have a family day so we decided to spend the day at the zoo. My brilliant self remembered everything, except of course, the sun screen. After more than four hours at the zoo enjoying the train, the lion feeding and the raptor show, I was sufficiently pink. Of course.. being the calm and non-dramatic person that I am.. I of course, did NOT complain the rest of the day about my horrible burn. Of course. *wink wink* So then Sunday I spent the entire day in bed watching episodes of Grey’s Anatomy and Gossip Girl on Netflix. I’ve never watched Gossip Girl before, but after watching half of the first season, I’m adequately addicted. It has a good soundtrack and lots of drama. Plus, 4 of the seasons are on Netflix so I can watch most of it during the off season…. Speaking of off season… one of my favourite shows starts its fourth season in a few days… Drop Dead Diva.. I don’t know if any of you have ever watched it but I loooooove it. The girl who pla...

did you know that chemistry is fun? I see you guys shaking your heads... but it is really.. I promise! Where else can you relate the geometry of molecules to porn stars boobs? ...CIS AND TRANS baby! (that probably won't make sense to 50% of you, but that's ok) It's also what makes up our entire universe... the UNIVERSE people... without chemistry, we wouldn't exist. That's basically all kinds of awesomesauce right there. You know what else you can do with chemistry... you can make bizarre analogies like USe your Vacuum while wAtching TV and Hang Your Shorts Please! (or something like that, I’m not quite sure) ALSO ... chemistry has BIG ligands.... like, real big. (it’s a good thing) ..oh, and “that’s what she said” this random post is brought to you by “Did You Know” from Just Jennifer and MotherhoodTruth ... you should definitely check them out... and link up.. cuz I’d like to know what you all know... and because Jen is super ...

maybe it’s the fact that I have a midterm tomorrow which requires me to know an entire page full of formula’s, laws, derivations, and equations…. or maybe it’s because this week’s (or last week's, or this week's? .. I'm so confused) Spreadable Cheese from Cheesy Bloggers is about memory. I don’t know why …or how ..or when it started, but my memory has more holes than swiss cheese. For reals… I can remember things that happened in elementary and high school but ask me what I did last Tuesday.. and I have to think about it for a minute. I don’t think that’s normal. Though it’s becoming ever more clear to me that “normal” isn’t even normal and no one is really, truly normal… and really… who WANTS to be normal… that’s boring.. and if I’m one thing… I’m anything BUT boring! I could relate my memory problems to the multiple times I’ve had a concussion (self-inflicted of course.. from the person who trips on flat surfaces) Or possibly the time that I d...

I’m a horrible blogger…. Don’t argue, it’s true. I forget to blog for weeks on end, and then when I do, it’s not always entertaining.   Like this one… it’s mostly just an update, so if you’re not interested in reading about my life, you might as well move on now. Please don’t. But seriously…. My life is hectic right now. I’ve been spending a good portion of my time studying for my physical chemistry midterm on Tuesday night. Though the good thing is that I seem to be feeling fairly confident at this point. The only thing that sucks is that I also have a creative writing assignment due the same day, a midterm on Thursday and then a lab report and tutorial assignment due Friday. ACK! (excuse me a minute while I faint) Some good news is … since I’ve been on medication.. my stress, depression and anxiety have been getting a little better. I still have days where the crazy doesn’t let me leave the house, but I’m not sure yet if that’s normal or not. ...

I totally fucking forgot to write about myself yesterday when I was given a blog award... (read about it here ). SO ... I'm supposed to talk about myself. well... shit. OK then... if I have to do this, you're coming along with me... no... don't try to run away now.. I've got you in my clutches. mwah ha ha ha ha ok so pay attention.. you'll be tested on it later (sidenote: my dad used to say that ALL the time when I was a kid and I just remembered.. what a pleasant memory.. I remember him always saying that about random things, but there was never any test.. I love my dad) Welllllllllllll.... I'm a chemistry student at the University of British Columbia but this is actually the first time I'm studying post secondary education in my home country.. .I've done all my other post secondary education in the US. I am TERRIFIED of bugs... like.. all kinds of bugs.. I may have even tried jumping out of a moving vehicle one time when a bug la...

normally it's angry Thursday... but for some reason today I'm super frustrated! It starts off with the terrible dreams I had last night about chemistry.... organic molecules attacking you in your sleep is definitely not an equation for a rested night. Or maybe it is.. if you're a total freak. Which I'm not. So... I woke up with bags the size of ballsacks under my eyes. Part of it stems from the fact that I have my first actual lab today and I'm super nervous. It's been about five years since I've done a chemistry lab.. and I had forgotten about the stupid lab prep. They always want you to read the lab (or prelab) before the actual lab and then usually prepare your notebook accordingly. I don't know if any of you out there in blogland have done this .. but it sucks. Well... at least it does if you're anything like me. I read through the whole thing.. once, twice... THREE times.. but until I'm actually IN the lab doing the experiment it usually ...

my baloney has a first name... it's nomnomnomnomnom.... thanks SO much to Adios Mofo for sharing that picture! 20 minutes later and I'm still laughing like a retarded hyena... I don't know if there is such as thing as a retarded hyena.. but I guess if we believe Disney... I know I haven't posted in a LONG time... but I've been SUPER busy... hence the crazy. but it could be the copious amounts of chemistry I'm studying... I have organic chemistry, analytical chemistry and coordination chemistry. Then next term MORE organic chemistry and some physical chemistry and maybe some inorganic chemistry... just thrown in there for good measure... cuz I'm just an insanely masochistic and crazy person I love chemistry so much! I'm really loving school though... I forgot how much I missed being intellectually stimulated on a regular basis. Working as a receptionist doing grunt work really didn't do it for me... plus the shitty pay was .. well.. shitty. ...