mad scientist girl

a really bad day. since it's humpday again, I'm going to post more love/hate songs... cuz I really don't know what else to say that doesn't involve an insane amount of profanity. I either want to just sit in a corner and cry or scream profanities until I have no more voice. reason I love this song - cuz I know all the lyrics and it makes me feel gangsta when I sing it reason I hate this song - cuz I know all the lyrics and it makes me feel gangsta when I sing it reason I love this song - it's classic and it's awesome (and I know all the lyrics) reason I hate this song - I always want to "jump around" ..and when I'm in the car that means I hit my head on the roof of the car... every.damn.time. reason I love this song - it's Sublime and it's awesome (and it's a little dirty) reason I hate this song - I don't know all the Spanish parts even though I've been listening to this song for more than 10 years... and so I end u...

so I woke up this morning after a dream where I was shopping to go out that night .. and getting ready.... seems like a normal dream, nothing too strange.... until you add to the fact that my mum was in it... my mum who passed away just over a year ago... I don't know why subconscious brain wants to hurt me ... but every time I dream about my mum... I get depressed all over again. I've been kind of depressed lately... so much homework and stuff around the house and just genuine SHIT .. that I can't focus and can't seem to smile. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK COCK SHIT DICK WANK ASS TWATWAFFLE DOUCHE CANOE FUCK FUCK FUCK BITCH ASS MOTHERFUCKER!!!! I just wrote a whole fucking rant and something went awol and fucking LOST it all!!! I was going to post a nice happy Things I Love Fridays after my rant but now I'm so fucking pissed off, I don't think I can even manage that! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! Ok so... that's enough for today.. cuz of all the things...